Life Without Him

Never in my wildest dreams did I imagine a relationship could be so difficult. I also never pictured myself falling so deeply in love with a man I've been apart more than I have been with. I hate to admit it but not having a real conversation with him in over a month has brought out so many insecurities. I often wonder if he still misses me as much as I miss him. If he looks forward to talking to me. If he still loves me and if that love is growing or whithering. It's not fun. I can not wait until I can once again be with him. I feel like I want to learn everything about him. I want to be there for him. I can't explain why it is that I feel this way but I know my feelings for him are so intense it's really starting to scare me. I'm starting to fear falling madly in love and having my heart shattered. Even though he's not here the person he is makes me want to be better. He has such a kind heart. I feel so lucky...