Feeling Blue

I'm not feeling so good.

Just sitting in this cold room makes me feel blue and I don't mean the color. So much has gone wrong and I had not actually sat down to think about it all. At my age you'd think I'd know nothing or little about life and anything would upset me but that's far from the truth.

I'm almost five-thousand dollars in debt because my sweet baby Sasha (my dog) managed to get herself hit by a car which broke her femur (right hind leg).

At first my only concern was her well being but now the impact of that unexpected expense has set in.

I just invested five-thousand in property for a business I hope to own someday and I still have about seven-thousand to go. It's not a lot if you think about it but to me it's huge. My plans are behind almost five months, if not more, I'm starting to feel overwhelmed. I wanted to start building by this summer but that doesn't seem likely. I'm not willing to give up though. Eight, seven, six months ago I would have just given up, said things happen for a reason and thrown away my dreams. I'm not willing anymore, this is what I want to do, I want to be an entrepreneur. All I can really do now is stop worrying so much and find a way to pay it off as soon as possible.