Finding Happiness

Mark and I & <3 I love him!

I can now look out of my living room window and see the Rocky Mountains. The smile on my face every time I do is wide and genuine. I moved in with Duke, which I can now call by his real name, Mark. Mark and I are in love, he is everything I have ever liked in others and more. The love we have is not like the ones you see in movies, blind, we are both very similar and clear about what we want, we can read each other clearly. He makes me happier than anyone ever could, even now, when I feel desperate to find a way to push myself to succeed.

Well, I decided to leave my job and I have been jobless for about a month now. I saved up some money which could last me a bit. I have not looked for a job, I have mostly been learning new things such as gardening, coupon clipping, grocery shopping, cooking, baking. It has been fun so far. I am also trying to train for a marathon which I am questioning my ability to run since I hurt my right knee. Life is not exciting, often I become bored from not working, but I am happy.

I do often feel disappointed because I feel that a lot of the plans I use to have are no longer what I wish to do. I am at a loss and unsure of what I want to do. I feel it in my heart the only thing I would be happy doing is owning my own business. I still consider having a cafe, but truly I am scared. I have also been thinking about starting a customized crafting business. For example making scrapbooks, cards, announcements for those who are too busy or do not have the desire, but would like to forever keepsake their special moments. Just an idea which I am unsure of.

Well moving forward and constantly maintaining a level of satisfaction for me has always been a challenge. The older I become the more frustrating it is. Once again I will continue to strive to improve and do what I love consistently, blogging for example. I feel I have the support. With that said I will once again attempt very specific goals in order to reach a level of satisfaction which I am missing. Goals I set back in October of 2011.
1. Write in a blog daily

2. Stop snoozing my alarm

3. Read daily

4. Exercise at least 30 minutes a day

5. Keep in touch with family and friends

As soon as I accomplish these goals I will set new ones. Check out the blog once again periodically. Hopefully this time I will do good updating.