All alone...

Picture perfect memories,
Scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone cause,
I can’t fight it any more.

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.
It’s a quarter after one, I’m all alone
and I need you now.
Said I wouldn’t call but I lost all control
and I need you now.
And I don’t know how I can do without,
I just need you now.

Another shot of whiskey,
can’t stop looking at the door.
Wishing you’d come sweeping
in the way you did before.

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.
It’s a quarter after one, I’m a little
drunk,
And I need you now.
Said I wouldn’t call but I lost all control
and I need you now.
And I don’t know how I can do without,
I just need you now.

Yes I’d rather hurt than feel nothing at
all.
a quarter after one, I’m all alone
and I need you now.

And I said I wouldn’t call but I’m a little drunk
and I need you now.
And I don’t know how I can do without,
I just need you now.I just need you now.
Oh baby I need you now.

Lady Antebel: Need You Now

Oklahoma

Home sweet home!

I missed my family.

Oklahoma was absolutely bananas!

So fun. I was 1 of 5 managers sent to train new hires and prepare them for the grand opening. The restaurant is in Norman, OK. It's right next to the University. Go Sooners! I think I may move to Norman just for the men. They sure make them pretty down there!

I met some great people so I hope I hear from them. Anyway I need to eat. My Cowboys lost to the Giants tonight. =( Can we get a new coach?

Please.

Thanks for '09

It's thanksgiving again!

My favorite holiday! I love spending time with family, eating, sleeping and watching football.

Yummm

It's really too bad that this year I'm sick =(

But I can still be silly =)

On top of that I have to go to bed early since I have to drive to Oklahoma at 3am tomorrow. It should be fun though. I'm actually looking forward to it now.

Rockies Game

I crossed out another "To-do" event from my list. Yesterday I went to a National League Division game. It was the Rockies against the Phillies. We started off great but gave up our lead which eventually lead to a loss. I'm a Rockies fan by the way.

It was a blast, my friend James and I met outside the stadium, I'm surprised I found him. There were so many people there. It was bitter cold too! Ugh. The pizza was crappy, the weather sucked and we lost but...It was amazing. I had so much fun! The crowd was lively, the seats were great and I always enjoy hanging out with James. He's one funny kid.

Miss him

I was just reading my old blogs, wow, do I ever not talk about men?

Well let me answer my own question, NO.

I really miss "Ashton" (as in Kutcher haha).

He's in the Navy now so he had to leave. I was really starting to fall for him. I definitely miss him. He sent me a letter, sounds like he's enjoying the change of pace. I definitely miss him. =(

At least I'm getting another promotion at work. I'm going to be an apprentice, which is a store managers assistant. I'm excited about it; I become a salaried manager in two weeks. There are pros and cons to that but for the most part I'm excited about it. I have to move locations though. I'll be working further away but overall I think it's better. It's one step closer to getting my own store.

Museum

I finally went to the Denver art museum.


Emmanuel and I had a blast. We saw some really cool art and we enjoyed ourselves.
There were a few pieces I fell in love with and some I really liked.



I really liked this one because it reminds me of the town in which my mother grew up and I use to visit during the summer.



This one is great too! It's one man portraying the different heritages. On one side his Indian side and the other his Mexican side.



This one was very colorful and beautiful.

The main reason why I was dying to go was for the exhibit the psychedelic experience.


They had this really cool lounge area, like the one in the 70's show .lol.


I really liked this door

The poster from that time were so interesting I couldn't take pics of many but I snuck in a couple.

There was also this really cool statue of buddha!

It was a great day I got to see some really interesting things.

Techno

The Bloody beetroots concert was so fun!

This is me acting "hard" on our way to Denver .lol.


We stopped at a friends for drinks



Leo and I were just dancing up a storm at the concert.


It was pretty sweet


Akin and I being gangster afterwards.

Insomnia

I can't sleep. It's been a while since I've been able to sleep. I'm so busy during the day you'd figure I'd be too tired to be able to stay up as late as I do or wake up as early as as I tend to. I can't seem to slow down though. I feel like time is slipping through my hands as quickly as water would. My mind is constantly racing, thinking, simply worrying too much. It's starting to affect my social life. It seems that when I'm with friends I can't really focus on them I'm thinking about work or money or family. My grandma is dying of cancer, that's the second grandparent I may lose to it. It worries me because it's hard to see how skinny and worn out such a strong woman and role model has become. It just makes me realize how fragile and vulnerable I am.

"What makes you think you'd have it your way?" -Hinder


At least work is good. I got another promotion, which means more money and more learning opportunities. It's more stressful though, more responsibility and more paperwork.

"'Cause when push comes to shove, you taste what you're made of" -Rascal Flatts

I can't believe I've almost got Sasha's debt paid off. I'm seriously counting down the days until I leave and start feeling that I'm really out on my own. But for now I'm counting down the days 'til new years. I plan on going to New york, Florida as my back up plan, I want to see the city on New years and maybe even get a pair of Manolo Blahniks that would be amazing.


"Put me in water 'cause this boy's fire has got a hold of me" -Santana feat. Jennifer Lopez

And of course what's one of my blogs without talking about men. I definitely erased Jude's message it was just a mistake waiting to happen. There is something bothering me though. A guy with a girlfriend has been texting me and asking to hang out. I won't of course but I'm annoyed at the fact that some guys are so disloyal. Why do we cheat? Doesn't it make more sense to break up with a person if you no longer want to be with them? And if you truly care about them wouldn't you spare their feelings and stop yourself knowing that when they find out they would be hurt. I've made my share of mistakes and continue to make them but I feel as though I'm learning from them. I wonder if guys like him ever stop to reflect on their past and see that what they do is wrong.

"A little bit of laughs, a little bit of pain, it's all in the game of love." -Santana feat. Michelle Branch

What does he want?

"If love is labor I'll slave 'til the end" -Rise Agaisnt


Grrrrrrrrrrrrr!

A couple of nights ago Jude texted me, I erased his number ages ago, so this is what happened.

He sent me a text asking how I was and saying he missed me, I asked who it was and all he said was "lol Nvm"

WTF!?

Now my mind is racing and my stomach is tied in a knot. I was doing great, I thought I was over him and then out of the blue three months after breaking up with me over a text he pulls this.

I'm not sure what I want or should do. The message is still in my inbox and after finding out who it was I've been considering sending him a text.

I keep telling myself to forget it, delete it and just keep moving forward but a big part of me has a desire to find out what he's up to.

What does he want?

Guys are so complex. Why can't they just straight out say what they feel. What does he want from me?

I don't believe he misses me specially after he just changes his mind about it. Why is he telling me if he doesn't mean it. Was he drunk? Did he get the wrong number?

MY GOD!

Why did I reply why didn't I just ignore the damn message, why did I have to find out who it was!? I can't get why he would out of the blue text me.

I need to erase that message and forget about it.

It's been ages!

Wow I have not signed onto my blog in ages! I miss it.

So a lot has changed in the few weeks I haven't been on. Work is great but the company is taking a path that makes it harder to get promoted. I'm earning a decent living I love what I do but I'm getting sick of the same things over and over again. I want to do something I would normally not even dream of. God I'm so exhausted I really need something to give. I've been running again and It has been helping but it is not enough.


I can't wait to finish paying the five grand for my dogs' surgery I have a little over half left. I still have to pay about seven grand for the property in Cancun and unfortunately I had to get a new car, another five grand. Once I'm done paying for all of it, Cancun, here I come!

New Years!

Happy New Year!

I have a few resolutions and these are it.

1. Stop drinking soda
2. Run everyday
3. Get enough sleep
4. Stop swearing so much
5. Learn more about my religion
6. Interrupt less
7. Stay organized
8. Read the entire newspaper everyday of the year
9. Wear red lipstick everyday
10. Spend at least one entire day a week with my mom and sister
11. Read 5 books a month
12. Do puzzles daily
13. Eat 5 small meals a day
14. Eat some sort of fruit daily
15. Meditate at least 5 times a week
16. Remember every ones birthday
17. Finish my scorpion tattoo
18. Get back piece started
19. Get a winter jacket
20. Go snowboarding at least 5 times

That's all I can think of now I'm sure I'll add more later.